Time for me to fly...

Lots of thoughts whirling around in my head. Thoughts, plans, possibilities, and hopes.  My animal medicine is Butterfly ( http://www.shamanlinks.net/Power_Animals.htm ).  I was convinced before this that, like a butterfly, I was hibernating in a cocoon.  Many people don't realize that a butterfly needs to push out of the cocoon at the end of that period of its life.  It's a painful process, but if a butterfly is helped, its wings do not get strong enough to allow it to fly once it is out. It will spend the rest of its life crippled and grounded. 

I have had some bad days over the last few weeks. I have succumbed to my physical illness more often. I have slept a lot.  Doctors who know about such things say that we work things out in our minds while we sleep. I think I have been working things out. I have been processing a lot of information from my life. 

It's easy to making sweeping generalizations about life when you are coming from a place of relative stability.  Philosophy isn't so hard when you've got a stable job and home life. 

I remember when I was in high school/middle school learning about something called the Heirarchy of Needs. ( http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Maslow's_hierarchy_of_needs,  )

I remember learning that the basic needs were food, shelter and clothing (with shelter including toilet & running water as well).  Looking  into it more now that I am an adult, I see it's more complicated than that, but the basic principle applies.  What do we really need to survive? Philosophy is allowed only after our more basic needs are met.  It's like thinking that what color the toilet is is something you can think about after you have the toilet. Or you can worry about what kind of jeans you are wearing once you have jeans to cover your body.

So, that's what I've been thinking - what do I need to survive and be happy?  Some people never really get the chance to ask that or to pursue the answer.  To build up, you first have to tear down. And, like a butterfly, it's going to make my wings strong enough to fly. 

Time For Me To Fly  by Reo Speedwagon


I've been around for you - been up and down for you
But, I just can't get any relief
I've swallowed my pride for you - lived and lied for you
But, you still make me feel like a thief
You got me stealing your love away 'cause you never give it
Peeling the years away, and we can't relive it
Oh, I make you laugh and baby you make me cry
I believe it's time for me to fly

You said we'd work it out
You said that you had no doubt that deep down we were really in love
Oh, but I'm tired of holding on to a feeling I know is gone
I do believe that I've had enough
I've had enough of the falseness of a worn out relation
Enough of the jealousy and the intoleration
Oh, I make you laugh and you make me cry
I believe it's time for me to fly

Time for me to fly
Oh, I've got to set myself free
Time for me to fly
That's just how it's got to be
I know it hurts to say goodbye, but it's time for me to fly

(Oh, don't you know that it's...)
Time for me to fly
Oh, I've got to set myself free
Time for me to fly
Oh, baby, that's just how it's got to be
Oh, I know it hurts to say goodbye, but it's time for me to fly
Fly
It's time for me to fly